wouldn't it be entirely ridiculous
if this one guy could be perfect for me

except for the fact
that we dated in high school
and he dumped me.


I don't think that's the case.
I just like to conjecture.

meh

I'm not witty enough to keep this blog up. Also, it has become a place for me to whine about my personal life, and honestly, that is a purpose better served by a journal...not a website.

So basically, I think I'm going to make a new blog and actually have a direction in mind this time, so that the new blog doesn't become Pity Party Blog Numero Dos.

But what to write about?

today's thought

If we were really serious about reducing illegal immigration numbers, perhaps we could stop referring to ourselves as "the best country in the world." Fewer people would give up their homes and families (and sometimes their lives) to move to the United States if we would just admit that it's not that great here, especially for foreigners.

why home sucks.

I just did something incredibly rude without meaning to at ALL. Mom's boyfriend is now really angry at me. Great.

It's so much harder to deal with people who don't love you being angry with you. There is no guarantee that he doesn't hate me. He has no incentive to forgive me for being an ass. He can just be a jack ass to me forever if he wants, since he's not actually my family.

Mom told me that I did what I did because I honestly think my opinion is the only one that matters. I find that really hard to believe, but I can't find any other way around it. I don't think I'm that selfish and stupid, but my actions seem to be telling a different story. She goes, "Why don't you just learn to stop and take a breath before you do things?"

Because by the time I realize I need to take a breath, I'm already in trouble.

This is fucking ridiculous. I'm almost 20 years old. You would think I would be able to interact with people in a manner befitting a young adult instead of like a petulant, poorly-disciplined child.

Needless to say, this has sealed the deal on my decision to stay in Chapel Hill next summer and never live at home again. I would much rather have a great relationship with my family some of the time than a stressful, often shitty one all the time.

just had a thought.

People who deny the existence of global warming are often very religious. These people are willing to give up pleasure in their earthly lives for the promise of a better afterlife, a better future for themselves.

People who are not religious tend to be more liberal, more environmentally conscious. These people are willing to give up material possessions like gas-guzzling cars for the promise of a healthier planet, a better future for everyone else.

There are some very interesting conclusions one could draw from this.
Mine is that religion blows.

YES.

"No matter what economists tell us abut getting the credit industry moving again, papering over debt with more debt will not pollinate our food crops when the last honeybee is dead. I suggest that we put the economists out there in the fields, hand-pollinating crops like they do in China. They seem to know all about the subject, and have placed a monetary value of $12 billion on the pollination accomplished by bees in the US. Can you imagine the fucking arrogance? All bees do is make our fruit and vegetable supply possible. Anyway, if we cannot use the economists for pollinators (odds are they are too damned whacked to do that job), we could also stuff them down the blowhole of the Deepwater Horizon spill. For the first time in history, economists would be visibly useful."

Joe Bageant

http://www.joebageant.com/joe/2010/07/waltzing.html

ahh, the single life.

I love how old flings are now creeping out of the woodwork. And not like, actual ex-boyfriends or anything. Oh no. Older guys who wanted me when I was 16. And now I don't have the excuse of age. But it's okay. It's actually kind of fun.

I am enjoying myself. I understand this casual dating thing now. I can flirt with them now without getting stressed about what it all means.