I hate me right now.

I was so proud of myself for applying to Carolina--for getting all the materials together, for writing the essay, for paying the $70 application fee.

But somehow, I completely forgot about applying for financial aid.
I am an idiot. There's no way around it.

So I sent in the application this morning...a month after I was supposed to do so. I emailed the admissions office asking if there was any chance I would be offered aid even though I am incredibly stupid and don't deserve it. I'm almost sure there's no way it'll happen. I am royally screwed.

I made a list of my options (assuming I get accepted to UNC):

1.  I miraculously get financial aid and everything is groovy. (Yeah, right.)
2. I work my ass off all summer and throughout the school year to pay for UNC out of pocket. 
3. I come back to UNCG and hate myself forever.
4. I take a year off to work.

This is awful. I'm ruining my own life. And I don't even HAVE a summer job lined up yet.